Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Moving On

We had our last Bible study tonight with my son, Sean, there. Although it was a good time of prayer and teaching, it was also sad because I thought about the years that have passed and how much I'm going to miss him. He graduates from high school on the 15th and then will be moving to Georgia to live with his dad.

As hard as it is to let him go, I feel like it's time. He has such a sweet spirit and a good head on his shoulders, so I'm not all that worried about him. I know that God will be with him wherever he goes, and He can take care of him better than I ever could. He's had some great Christian friends in his life for the last three or four years who have mentored him and prayed for him through those tough early teen years and even now as he prepares to leave. I'm so blessed to have him in my life. In so many ways, he's a special person. And I love him.

I've been feeling all sorts of things lately because of this upcoming change in our lives. I know he is excited because he's missed his dad terribly over the years. And his dad has missed out on most of his growing up, so I know they are both looking forward to being together for a while. The selfish part of me wants to keep him here with me forever. As my daughter learned from an old episode of Dick VanDyke recently, that's what you call "selfish love."

I think Dick was teaching his son about a duck...but the same principle applies...

Bittersweet. Saying goodbye to his boyhood, but looking forward to his adulthood. He is covered in prayer, so I know he'll be fine.

I, on the other hand, am another story all together.


  1. Oh Christa, I do know what you mean. It is very hard to let our kids go. We have a daughter 20 hours away and another 9 hours away. But it sounds like your son has the solid background he needs and I know his mom will not stop praying for him - just as I never stop praying for my kids.

    Thank you for stopping in at Cranberry Morning. I so enjoyed reading your comment. It made me smile, for that story is not atypical of kids who grew up on a farm. :-) I'm your newest follower. I see that Sandie beat me to it. :-) I hope you'll follow back?

  2. I keep hearing about this transition from moms I know. My kids are still in their early teen and tween years, but I know that a day like this will come, and it will feel too soon. Your ability to love him enough to let him go and cover him with prayer is beautiful. I'll pray for you.

  3. Praying for you for this next part of the journey. A mother's heart is never far from her children. :)

    Thanks for commenting on my post over at Tyrean's blog. I appreciate your thoughts. It's great to meet you!

    Have a good weekend,

  4. It is so hard to let them go. My daughter married a man on mother's day and moved from FL to Seattle. We see each other maybe once a year but I know we raised her right and that God is with her wherever she is.
    Can't say I didn't bawl a lot...but that's part of what we do as moms, isn't it?
    You have a handsome son to be proud of!

  5. Thanks, everyone, for the sweet comments and encouragement. Oh, Terri, I will cry at the drop of a hat. And I didn't do that until I became a mom, so there must be some connection there.